Post Academia Blues: Have you got it?

As I finished the body of my dissertation, I contemplated the ways in which I would introduce the topic of eBook and find a nice way to connect the topic in order to get my reader captured from the very first sentence. 

For hours I stared at a blank screen until I realized the important element of Change. The epitome of what my thesis preaches is that change is inevitable and quintessential for any business success. I was happy with my introduction and felt very confident that it linked with my body of work. Now, the blood and sweat I have poured in the last 3 months and a half will hopefully be rewarded with the grade I deserve.

Yet the topic of Change has once again subconsciously been brought up during a conversation my friend and I were having. It has been almost two months since we had seen each other and both of us have begun to adjust to our new lifestyles post St. Andrews. Now that we have both finally submitted our Dissertations, proud to have it done weeks in advance! We began to ask the troubling question that we have put of for almost a year, What now?

A recent article by the Guardian states that many people suffer from Depression after graduation, a result of feeling helpless to the big corporation world out there. Majority of us entered university with ideals of leaving and conquering the world but we wake up to the harsh reality of rejection letter from companies, entry level jobs requiring experience and positions of which applications begin in year 2011.

Especially in this economy, it is almost hard for anyone who has just graduated to find his or her ideal job! This according to the Guardian’s article is the reason behind this depression which is widely affecting large number of graduates. Think about it, How many cover letters could one write stating why they are qualified and fit for the company, how many more “tests” should a student go through and in the end they see the word rejection. Helplessly, we all ponder the thing we most fear, “ Is there something wrong in me?”.

Looking at one of my friends as an example, he had applied for a graduate position in a well-known consulting firm in the United Kingdom. He was thrilled to hear back from the company and went through two interview processes that he successfully aced. Later he conducted quantitative examination with a case study which was done on an 8 hour span. He finally received a phone call from the consulting company that he had successfully passed this stage and was called in for the final stage in which constituted of an  interview with the head of HR, they stated that even if on paper he was perfect for the position, if HR dosent believe you can incorporate into the company’s culture you will not be hired. It was hard to believe that they would not take him in after this whole process, yet he received the phone call that told him that they decided that he was not the right fit into the following company. They tell you rejections are part of life but I can imagine it took him a while to recover, as it should! And we provide the words of wisdom that keeps us optimistic, “ This rejection was for the best”

Yet I don’t believe a job is going to resolve everything, perhaps it will postpone and keep you busy until you begin to settle down and become happy with the new adjustments in your life. Change is hard, especially after years of enjoying a similar lifstyle, group of friends and atmosphere. Some of us come with a different mindset but we always somehow find life post academia in my opinion the hardest transition in our lives.

Denial

2:18 Am, Its about time that I shut those lights and go to bed, but it is not always easy.

I Feel the stress and pressure from this essay that I have to submit and all I want is for it to just finish and go away!

I have decided that despite the hard effort and work that I put in the last two weeks building

our business plan was not enough, rather, I am keen on finishing working on a reflective paper

that is due in two weeks time because i will be leaving next week and I have no intention of carrying this with me to London when I will meet my dad!

After hours of trying to read as much academic journals as i can my classmates and I were chilling on a Saturday night when one of my friends brought to our attention that t the lives we are living in St. Andrews is soon coming to its epic end!

With only one more module left almost everyone will be leaving St. Andrews and living in London or Edinburgh to work at summer placements and very few of us are perhaps staying in St. Andrews.

At that very moment I was in denial of that very fact, I did not want to circum to the idea that this dream I had since 8th grade to live abroad is coming to an end! more importantly I did not want to see all the friendships I made this year become part of my past.

I cannot imagine not waking up one day from this questionable bed I have in my dorm room, not knock on my Flat mate door to hang out in town and even take my stroll down our infamous "green mile" to get to our beloved Gateway building.

What makes life here in St. Andrews so special is that its simple, very simple and that is despite the stress that I currently am in. As much as I love Dubai and have come to forgive its flaws, I find life there very complicated in so many different aspects that would need a blog on its own!

another part of my denial is the fact that I hate saying goodbye! I have made many great friends in St. Andrews who had such a great impact in my life and made this experience here better than I could have imagined. how could I tell these people have a great life and perhaps only see them once in every two/three years after spending almost every day of my life in St. Andrews with them?

I have never regretted my decision of coming to the small quirky town of St Andrews, I have learnt to love it everyday and will make sure to savor every moment I am here.

2:45 Am now i seriously have to get to bed!

Reflection: gut feelings

Being Back to my routine life in St Andrews is quite surreal, with the first week over I wasn't sure how to make of it. I find myself back to the basics with my lack of enthusiasm to do work with such short days and laziness is always a great prospect!

yet i had a great deal of time of thinking to do, and the prospects of pursuing Photography is becoming much more stronger in my mind, I find that there is a drive in me that knows that perhaps my chance is here and right now and I must take a hold of it.

It may be the laziness and my creative imagination talking but have you ever had such a strong gut feeling about something? They speak of it fondly in various media outlets, it must not be part of someone's figment of imagination. I just know it is the right track for me!

call me crazy, call my whatever you like but I think theres something about this spontaneous feeling that I have a future in this crazy world of photography!